"Sleepless gliding
Over the city lights
Watch us flying
Over the streets tonight"
"Sunday morning
Watching the city sleep
Dreams are shining
Finely they’re within reach"
Music always make me feel so much better about everything. It's always spoken to me, I can always find a song that relates to almost any situation I'm in, it just speaks to my soul.
I haven't posted anything in a while, I don't know how people keep up with this stuff. Well let's see, I did the fanzine thing about 2 times and that was it. Unfortunately, but fortunately, have been working, since I get off at 10:30 on the weekends I don't get any time to go to shows or if any kind of event is going on I have to work as well. I don't have to worry about that anymore though, I'm free of that place and looking for another job. It sucks because my head is going kinda crazy, I have to move out of the place I'm at now and into a friends house, since I'm jobless I cant afford to pay any of the rent, and neither can my mom. Right now my main focus is going to be school, which was going to be the plan anyways. I'm not bummed about loosing my job, mostly because 2 days before I got fired I had a job interview and it went really well, even went well again on wednesday. This is giving me the chance to put all my focus on school and myself. Always looking on the bright side :)
I went to EDC for my birthday, and partied for a week straight. I had such a great time, I loved my outfits, especially the one for the second day, I got to see some amazing sets. Infected Mushrooms, I danced for their entire set, which was 1:45, sober. Kaskade was amazing, I missed a couple of songs though. Deadmau5 was pretty cool, but most people said he could have done a better job, I agreed, either way still good. For saturday, I absolutely loved Above&Beyond, I cried for their set, I was so happy I got to see them. The rest of the week was just a party for me, I went to two parties on friday, and I got to see a lot of people I hadn't seen in a long time, so it was really nice to catch up with old friends.
School is going to be interesting, I still don't know what it is that I want to do. I have so many interests, I do know I wanna take a business class, so that's a good start. I'm gonna take the basic classes first to make it easier on myself and from then on I can start figuring out what I like the most.
I've been feeling really nostalgic lately, almost every song I listen to makes me feel that way. There's a lot of things, people, and feelings that I miss a lot, I wish there was a way to just fall asleep and wake up in the past to those times. I know its impossible, but a girl can dream cant she? I always try not to let myself fall too deep, if I do I might not be able to get back up, its happened before, and that wouldn't be good. Even though I have so many people that would spring me out of it like nothing. Its safer to stay in reality I guess, it feels like the days are going by faster and faster now, but my days are so long, and my nights even longer, I just want to be out all night, doing something exciting, but everyone is sleeping, and I'm still awake. I feel like this when I'm alone especially, but that's ok, I think I would rather embrace the feeling than let it bring me down. I've been hit by a lot of life's obstacles within the past couple of months to a year. The break up was the hardest, it was so weird, but I think I've been doing a good job, I'm still standing strong and I have all my friends by my side too which is always nice. One thing I am worried about is my kitty, I really don't know where I can take her, if I cant find anyone I'm just going to put her in one of those places where they watch your pets, I don't care how much it costs. I just hope I have enough money.
Well at least now I can really focus on whats most important in my life. Me, School, Jade, and of course my sanity.
